Conversations with God

As we went through this adoption process, I had many conversations with God. He answered in very clear ways. Here is my side of some of our conversations.

God, I know William and I talked about adoption a long time ago, but we have 2 kids. Are we supposed to adopt more? The house isn’t that big.

OK, God, adoption it is, but there are so many choices. Should we adopt state side or international? What about the cost? Oh, there’s a hosting program. That’s a good first step to check things out and get some answers.

Wow, all these kids are great. I remember years ago, William saying he wanted “Russian spoken in our home” since it was his college minor.

Which one? How about that girl? She has a brother. Should we adopt 2?

She doesn’t seem to want to be here with us. Is this something that will change over time or should there be a better fit? This all seems so fast!

You’re right; we shouldn’t have forced something that didn’t fit. I know you have a plan and have the perfect kids for us. I’m sure we’ll meet them at Christmas.

OK, so maybe not at Christmas. They’ll be here in March. We’ll just keep plugging along with our paperwork. Thanks, God, for this hosting program. It sure is great that we’ll be able to see our future kids interacting with Mason and Emily in our home! That will really be an affirmation that these are the kids you have for our family.

So… the orphans aren’t coming in March? What should we do?

God, it’s a good thing we sent our paperwork in. There isn’t a good match in this group of kids for June/July. None of the single kids stand out as “our kid” and in the boy/girl sib group, the brother is too old. I know you want what’s best for Emily and Mason. Emily is such the “first born” child and really needs to keep that “status. Also, having a 12 year old share a room with my 5 year old son just wouldn’t work. But, God, I know you have the right kids picked out for our family. Pursuing a standard adoption, will be a real faith builder for all of us.

Wow, God. The older kids are really sweet. Too, bad they’re not in the right age range for our family. What? Really? You want me to think about adopting one of them? But they don’t fit the criteria! OK, I’ll think about it. You’re right, I do like this age. I guess that’s why I taught middle school for so long. I wonder what William will say.

That older boy is really cute, God. And he’s part of a sibling group. I love how he interacts with the other kids and he always greets me with a huge smile and wave when we arrive at camp each day. He’s all boy, but there’s a sweetness about him. Maybe… What’s that? The girl’s not available until March. I really don’t want to wait until March, and I’m really hoping for a sibling group. Misha comes off the registry in August? The SDA is looking at our dossier in August! Yes, God, I get it. We’ll see if he wants to stay with us for the last two weeks to see if it’s a good fit for everyone. And to think we wouldn’t be hosting anyone… go figure.

Emily and Misha REALLY are meshing! You’d think they’d be siblings for years. Emily is begging me to adopt him. She was having a very hard time with us adopting someone sight unseen. We’ll keep watching. Misha seems to be happy with us. The age difference doesn’t seem like such a big deal anymore.

God, thank you so much. We love Misha, and he’s said that yes, he would like for us to adopt him and his sister. He’s leaving soon, but hopefully we’ll get to bring him (and his sister) home before his birthday in November.

WOW, that was fast! Misha only left a few weeks ago and now we have to be in the Ukraine by the end of the August! I can’t wait! I never expected it to go this fast.

Things have gone so smoothly. I know that’s not always how it is for people, but Thank you. Even the delay at the end of the process, turned into a blessing. We needed that time to bond without the distractions of two more kids, dogs, and everyday life. Thank you for giving us what we didn’t even know we needed.

You must be laughing with joy right now. It’s kind of like when I plan a big surprise for Emily or Mason and they have no clue. I love planning the details because I know how great it will be for them. Thanks for loving us SO much that you plan the details! Looking back, I see Your hand in all the details and I hear Your voice answering my concerns. I know that we have only begun this journey, but I also know that I can be confident that you have the details planned.


Jeremiah 29:11For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.